This is so hard. I feel like an emotional storm is brewing, I've kept them safe and tucked away a long time, but it's all just built up a sort of atmospheric pressure. I am not in love with James anymore, and I think, know, he can sense it, and after our talk he's trying to hold onto me even tighter, almost desperately. I feel relieved, a sense of ( Read more... )

Pity is any ugly gift

And I don't want it anymore

I wanted you

Now I don't know what for

To prove a point

To hide my wreckless desire

Paint my weakness with destiny

And end up in your fire

Well I won't go down with you

You lay in your own bed

I'm not the back up plan

And it's all on your head

I hope guilt finds you

A bitter and broken man

And you see your ( Read more... )

Theres this man, hes tall and ringlets of blonde hair fall in his eyes seductively, and he brushes them away at just the right moments, showing off an intense sort of gleam emitting from the very corners of his eyes. I used to describe him to friends as the kind of guy you might see staring back at you from the pages of Cosmopolitan, advertising ( Read more... )

This poem is a little odd but it's one of my favorites, the night I wrote it I was pregnant still and very very sad--crying, nose running, the whole 9 yards so to speak. I'm not much of a poet--but I think this captures the feeling really well.

Beacuse God even his cruelty will sometimes grant mercy.

Beacuse Venus was in Sagittarius.

Beacuse you ( Read more... )

Boring day today...Definitely a two star day. I did not get anything accomplished today that I had intended to accomplish. I don't think I'm going to get out at all this weekend. I didn't see Chris. I never seem to see Justin anymore...It is my fault--I pushed him away. I guess I was hopeing he wouldn't let me. Through all this there's one boy I ( Read more... )